I really love 2 things: languages and when it's dark and cold.
I probably like darkness and cold because I'm Russian and also a night owl - I work better at night (it's good that nobody reads my blog yet including my boss).
That's exactly why when I was 22, I started deciding where to go next. Even then I decided that I would leave and that I wanted to study for a master's degree, and I was choosing from many options: Germany, Czechia, Finland, Sweden, etc.
For example, I really liked Sweden (blondes, Abba, etc), but in the end I'm here (I should probably say why, but that's for sometime later). However, that interest in Scandinavian culture (mainly urban and work culture, maybe not so much human) was quite big, so sometime in 2015 I went to Stockholm for a few days, just to see what and how it is there.
Now back to the first part - I always learn a few words before traveling so I understand what's going on. Somehow I found the word "lagom" and this changed my life a bit (but yes, my life changes quite often, so I'm not even surprised by these little things).
This word "lagom" is difficult to translate into both Russian and Czech, and means something like "exactly as much as is necessary".
How is it used? Like at work. In Russia, work culture is a bit strange (well, at least that's what I think today). It's always expected that the bigboss (or Putin) will come and tell us idiots what and how to do. If he doesn't say it, it doesn't even have to be done. That internal control somehow doesn't exist or is rather suppressed.
This really pissed me off a long time ago, because I have two illogical qualities: I'm an idealist, but at the same time I'm fucking lazy and I don't like to do more than I want. This is really hard to live with, especially when you're around 20.
But this "lagom" fucking helped me. Now when I have that internal dialogue and ask myself - should I even do this? Should I stop already or should I rape my will further? I always tell myself: "Do this lagom".
How big should I write articles for the neblog? Should I stay at work until seven tonight? Should I get up at 7 or 11 in the morning tomorrow? Everything lagom. And if there's someone around me who disturbs my lagom - let them go to Asia, bitch, it works perfectly there.